i'm in a rut

i'm sure we all go through this at some time or another. we're going about our days, happy and somewhat full of life, enjoying the city we live in, hanging out w/ppl we like, and then one day it hits you. life just sucks. every day becomes the same. wake up, get dressed, go to work where you see the same ppl and do the same work, go home, have dinner, watch tv or do an activity, go to bed, and repeat for the next 4 days. and then the weekend comes, and it revives you because you can sleep in (unless the construction is too noisy outside), relax (must remember the earplugs though), shop (even though you have no money because it's all going to your mortgage payments), do whatever that makes the weekend different from the weekday. and then on sunday night you realize you're right back where you started.

what's it all for? what's the point? i'm not depressed or anything, i'm just contemplating sh*t in my own shallow way, since i'm not a very deep person.....i am blonde after all :P there isn't anything in particular that makes any one day stand out anymore, nothing that makes me wake up in the morning and think, "it's gonna be a great day!" i'm just trying to make it through the day without pissing anyone off or screwing anything up. perhaps i'll feel better after vegas......going somewhere on a plane always cheers me up (as long as i'm not going to the pas in the middle of summer!). or perhaps i'll do something i swore i'd never do......take vacation time and just do nothing.

i don't have any answers right now. i just need a change. anything would be good. maybe the puppies will "shed" some light on me. hahahaha! i crack myself up! hahahaha!